So Tired...

I'm just wondering when all this is finally going to end... Probably when I'm dead...*grins* This whole "mothering" thing is a lot of hard work! And, with Kassia still not sleeping through the night...I'm just wondering if I'll ever know the joy of sleeping more than just two or three hours consecutively... I'm exhausted all the time... And, I know everyone says to just "let her cry it out" at night when she wakes up, but I can't do it and have a clear conscience until I know for sure that it's just "crying" and not something else relating to her stomach problems... The jury's still out on that - we had more blood drawn on Wednesday for running more allergy panels... I'm just not sure what's wrong... So far, all the tests have come back normal, which is a good thing...but, that means we haven't discovered yet what's causing all of Kassia's tummy issues... We meet with the pediatrician this coming Thursday to discuss the results of all the tests we've done recently... If she says that these tests have come back normal as well, I'm not sure exactly where that'll leave us... I'm praying that God will guide me, that He'll give me His peace so I'll know which direction to take - either to leave things alone and just see if Kassia outgrows all this stuff, that maybe it's just a phase OR to press forward and try and see a specialist outside the military who might be able to better figure out what's going on... Yeah, I just went from talking about being tired to babbling about all of Kassia's medical stuff...yep, but, with a reason - they're connected! The reason she wakes up all the time in the middle of the night has to do with all the gas she has...which comes from all her tummy problems...and which is why I don't get to sleep more than a couple of hours at a time... I know God has a plan... Please, Lord, help me to trust You more... Alright, time to see if I can take a short 45 minute nap before I have to get up and get ready and finish packing for our short trip to Ft. Worth this weekend for a family reunion... Good night! (or should I say, "Good morning?")